Dear Mom,
My life has been a mess lately and I know if I could talk to you it would all make a lot more sense. On Saturday night, I lost my wallet. The Louis Vuitton that was Didi's and I feel so awful. It had my ID card, my debit card, my health insurance card, my Red Cross CPR card, Ralph's card, and both of my fake ID's. On Sunday night, I found out my friend Bel passed away...so I decided to go out and party. I ended up missing my first day of work at a local private trainers gym in Beverly Hills. I should have been more responsible, I was so uspet with myself and upset about Bel, that I got upset with Adrien. He's been so incredibly supportive and here for me. I felt awful.
I really miss you and I wish you could tell me which path to take or where to go next or even just hug me and tell me that it will be alright..
Tomorrow, I'm going to my last appointment for my hand, then hopefully to the bank to get a new card and the DMV to get a new ID. I came home today to grab my passport, birth certificate and SSC. I'm really growing up and doing things on my own. I can see it the little things, the things no one else probably would never even notice, but the things I know you would feel were so different if you saw me now. Sometimes I wonder if you would even know me anymore? If if you met me, you would see me and recognize me physically, but have no idea who I was. I change so often and so much. I look back a week ago and I feel so much more grown up and its ONLY a week!
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